I decided that enough is enough, that since you obviously don't care about me anymore I'm just going to move on. Easier said than done I suppose, because at the end of the day I'm staring out the window with these tears on my cheeks. Look what youve done to me...

Don't love so hard that it hurts. Careful, be very careful. Once you put your heart in someone's hands, you are giving that person the ability to walk away with it. Keep your heart in your chest. Love slowly and carefully. Once that person shows you signs of loyalty, trust, and respect that's when you can gentle place your heart in someone's hands, but only half of it. You keep the other half of your heart and make sure that person gives you half of their heart as well... That way both of you will have a piece of each others hearts to make you whole as one.

Forgive Me

"Can you forgive me again? I don't know what I said but I didn't mean to hurt you...I heard the words come out I felt that I would die it hurt so much to hurt you...Then you look at me, you're not shouting anymore, you're silently broken. I'd give anything now to kill those words for you...each time I say something I regret I cry, I don't wanna lose you but somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah..'Cause you were made for me, somehow I'll make you see how happy you make me...I can't live this life without you by my side, I need you to survive, so stay with me, you look in my eyes and I'm screaming insode that I'm sorry...and you forgive me again, you're my one true friend and I never meant to hurt you."

- Evanescence

         I need someone who won't give up on me no matter how hard I try to push them away.

True Love

True love comes only once in a lifetime yet it lasts an eternity...It has the power to crush someone so deeply while at the same time they know there’s no one else in the world they’d rather be with...True love will knock down the walls of difficulty to be with that special one...It will take your hand and fly over the world into a place where there’s no pain, no tears...True love will withstand the test of time, forever waiting until its love is returned...It never fails, never dies, never lets go of the one they love.

I walk around trying to find you, on every corner and I stop in every eye, I leave the sadness behind and bring the hope in its place. May our love last forever. My godsend. I wish I could swear that this passion will never be JUST WORDS, SMALL WORDS, WORDS...WORDS TO THE WIND."

What Is Love?

What is love? Love is when Khadijah (R.A) spent her entire wealth on this Deen for the Man she loved...Love is when the Prophet (S.A.W) took the glass that Ayesha (R.A) drank from and put his lips on the exact place she put her's and then drank... Love is when the Prophet (S.A.W) had a race with Ayesha (R.A) and joked with her when she lost...Love is when Zainab (R.A) would sacrifice her most prized possession, her everything for her Husband...Real Love is not (just) based on romance, candle light dinners and walks along the beach rather it is based On respect, compromise, care and trust.

              Como se fosse, simples assim, acabar com a distância que há entre nós dois.

Ando me conformando com a idéia de que mesmo estando tão longe, em algum lugar deste imenso mundo, você olha para o mesmo céu que eu olho neste momento, e sorri como eu sorrio aqui, tão longe de você. Me falaram que sonha alto demais, o tombo é maior ainda, mas… e quem disse que eu tenho medo de cair? e meu sonho, é que um dia eu vou poder olhar nos seus olhos e poder dizer que te amo. Mas eu posso transformar minhas dificuldades, em provas vivas de que eu sobrevivi á luta e não estou mais limitado. Se bem que distância é algo psicológico, afinal, quando eu senti muito a sua falta, eu vou apenas olhar para dentro de mim, e eu sei que você estará lá.

"Eu sei, eu sei, o eterno clichê “isso passa”. Passa sim e, quando passar, algo muito mais triste vai acontecer: eu não vou mais te amar. É triste saber que um dia vou ver você passar e não sentir cada milímetro do meu corpo arder e enjoar. É triste saber que um dia vou ouvir sua voz ou olhar seu rosto e o resto do mundo não vai desaparecer. O fim do amor é ainda mais triste do que o nosso fim. Meu amor está cansado, surrado, ele quer me deixar para renascer depois, lindo e puro, em outro canto, mas eu não quero outro canto, eu quero insistir no nosso canto. Eu me agarro à beiradinha do meu amor, eu imploro pra que ele fique, ainda que doa mais do que cabe em mim, eu imploro pra que pelo menos esse amor que eu sinto por você não me deixe, pelo menos ele, ainda que insuportável, não desista."

— Tati Bernardi

When you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart, it's the hardest thing you could ever go through, and no matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. You may think you're getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest. You fall apart for the hundreth...

Don’t ever give up. Even when it seems impossible, something will always pull you through. The hardest times get even worse when you lose hope. As long as you believe you can do it, you can.
But when you give up, you lose.

                  "With the way my heart loves you right now,
              I can't decide either to give up or to keep going on,
            even if it hurts a lot thinking that you'll never be mine."

Oh How long I wished that the day of our first meeting could come true and I could touch you to feel you REAL right here beside me, close to me. At least once in my life having the happiness of being able to enjoy my dreams coming true. I'm still longing for this magic moment.

"...So I would choose to be with you, that's if the choice were mine to make, but you can make decisions too and you can have this heart to break"...

"...In every heart there is a room a sanctuary safe and strong to heal the wounds frome lovers past until a new one comes along..."

If tomorrow never comes will he know how much I loved him? Did I try in every way to show him every day that he's my only one? and if my time on earth were through and he must face the world without me is the love I gave him in the past gonna be enough to last?...If tomorrow never comes...'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life who never knew how much I loved them, now I live with the regret that my true feelings for them never were revealed...So I made a promise to myself to say each day how much he means to me and avoid the circumstance where there's no second chance to tell him how I feel...So tell that someone that you love just what you're thinking of... If tomorrow never comes...

Amor Platônico

"Eu sou apenas alguém ou até mesmo ninguém, talvez alguém invisível que o admira a distância sem a menor esperança de um dia tornar-me visível. E você? Você é o motivo do meu amanhecer, é a minha angustia ao anoitecer, você é o brinquedo caro e eu a criança pobre, a menina solitária que quer ter o que não pode, dona de um amor sublime mas culpado por querê-lo, como quem o olha na vitrine mas jamais poderá tê-lo. Eu sei de todas as suas tristezas e alegrias mas você nada sabes. Nem da minha fraqueza, nem da minha covardia, nem sequer que eu existo. É como um filme banal, entre a figurante e o ator principal. Meu papel era irrelevante para contracenar no final."

 Legião Urbana

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” 

Will You Take Me For Granted? (Women Must Read)

I would like to share this with other women. To make them smile, or rethink their choices, or prepare. And I also want to share this to men, so they would understand...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve, then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better". You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You can not change a man's behaviour. Change comes from within.
Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending. Compromise is two way street.
Make him miss you sometimes. When a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him, he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in our radar but get to know others.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful.
You should know that you're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing.
If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one. They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices. Make the right one.
The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to make her fall for him when he doesn't intend to catch her fall.

"There would come a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person has started hating us. But because we found out that they'd be happier if we let them go." -Hamdiy-

I'm not gonna get drunk to please the crowd..
I'm not gonna be a slut and sleep around..
I'm gonna say what I think and say it loud..
I'm gonna say what I believe and I'm gonna stand proud..
I'm gonna be me, no matter who I'm around..

So ladies, take care of your own heart..

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At times when I can't take it anymore, I ask myself.. How much worse can my life get? Then I stop, glance at you & say.. "much worse, if I ain't got you"..

There is no time like the present, love the one that loves you with all you have every moment of every day. Show them how much they mean to you by action, time heals all wounds but when the love is broken and properly healed, time has been a contributor of love ♥

For some, especially for those whose interest relies heavily on pleasing everyone around them, wasting time on people who don't love them in an effort to try to convince those people to love them is a major part of their lives. If you are one of these people, it is time for you to make a change today. Life is way too short to waste time trying to convince someone that you are worthy to be loved.

Stop wasting your time on people
who doesn't love you.

 I'm trying to convince myself that he doesn't love me anymore after all we had together, but it's just too hard to accept it...I am still in doubts even after he told me "I don't love", maybe he just said that in a moment of anger, because of my stupid jealousy. I could not leave untill he tell me his real feeling for me, "I will leave you alone as you want but first time tell me that you don't love me", and he did. I could not expect something like this from him. My only mistake was loving you more than  you deserve.

“And I will love him no matter what you say. You're simply too immature to understand that love does stretch for miles and miles. So you just be an immature little kid looking for love in all the wrong places, and I will be content with mine right where it is.. not all those miles away, but in my heart, and in his heart, where distance does not matter.”

I would cross a thousand oceans just to hold you tight. I would climb a thousand mountains just to be with you every single night. I miss you so much.

الحب الأبدي

      Eu sinto uma dor tão intensa que nem sei como continuar...O amor que sinto por ele já não me faz tão bem, eu o amo tanto que me sinto doente de não poder estar com ele, e agora estamos passando por um momento tão difícil, que começo a ter dúvidas sobre o amor dele por mim, e isso dói.
      
       Decidi editar esse post porque não quero me expôr demais e continuar adiante com algo que só me faz sofrer. Durante 5 anos amei um egípcio que me deu muito amor, mais do que um dia pensei receber e merecer, ele me fez sonhar e esses sonhos se tornaram uma motivação para que podesse seguir em frente, encarar a vida e crescer. Aos poucos comecei a sair da depressão, voltei a estudar e me dedicar à esse sonho que é de um dia encontrá-lo, mas as coisas não são tão fáceis assim. Os dias foram passando, meses, anos, e muito coisa ainda não tinha mudado em nossas vidas, parecia que cada vez mais nosso sonho se distanciava, e sentíamos impotentes diante do que estávamos vivendo, não havia nada que podéssemos fazer para realizar nosso desejo de um dia estarmos juntos. Ainda jovens estudantes o que poderíamos ter feito? Nenhum de nós vem de família rica ou que podesse nos ajudar, e esse não era O problema, o problema era e ainda sou EU, por ser exclusa de uma vida social perdi tempo demais com medo bobos, e esse sentimento de incapacidade que sempre toma conta de mim, me sinto muito culpada por até hoje não termos nos encontrado, mas também sei que não posso carregar essa culpa sozinha. Hoje já estamos mais maduros, e a vida começa a nos trazer responsabilidades maiores, e esse é o momento de fazer acontecer, sei que um dia estaremos prontos para realizar qualquer sonho, mas ainda temos que esperar, e esperar não é algo que ele pode suportar mais, a exaustão de um relacionamento á distância tomou conta dele, e todos os sonhos que um dia tivemos, e no fundo ainda temos, se tornaram frustração. Também cansei, e por mais difícil que seja sei que é hora de nos afastar, temos que viver nossas vidas, ele lá e eu aqui. Não podemos nos prender um ao outro impedindo que nossas vidas aconteçam, porque a vida está muito além de viver um amor atráves de uma tela.
        Nesse tempo de relaciomento virtual compartilhamos muitos coisas, tanto boas como ruins, e o importante é que aprendemos muito um com o outro, e demos o nosso melhor  para que esse amor sobrevivesse à toda essa distância. Entre idas e vindas, medo, decepção e frustração, eu ainda o amo, e sempre vou amar. Não irei apenas guardar lembraças de tempos difíceis e de tristeza, mas também de muito amor mútuo.

Aqui uma foto do nosso primeiro filhinho hahahaha Little Mody :

Ele me enviou esse ursinho 3 anos atrás, ainda lembro do cheirinho dele quando chegou. :)

After 5 years of relationship I thought I knew you well, knew who you were, at least your heart I was sure that I could trust and believe in it, believe in all your feelings for me, but it seems like I was wrong all this time. I am surprised with your attitudes of a BOY. I thought you loved me enough to be by my side in this moment, whatever is the situation we are in. I know I lost my mind, I should not let my jealousy to affect our love that way, but YOU better than any one know that I have reasons to be jealous of you with that person. You used to tell me,“try to be in my place”, so I tell you now :  Try to be in place to feel how I feel about everything I am going through with you. There are “little devils” inside my head telling me how stupid  I am of being with you yet, I'd rather to believe in you if you had something to tell me to change my stupid mind about you, but instead you close yourself in silence. Theres no complicity between us anymore, so there's no more reason why to be in it.

You can't change how you feel about someone, no matter how much you wish you could. You can't stop loving them even though they're all wrong for you or ever though it'll never work. You can't control the way you look at them or the way your heart reces and your breaths quicken when they're in the same room. You can't turn love on and off.

When you're in love, you start losing touch of reality, of everything around you; and once that person disappears, reality hits you hard.

The one who is worth your tears would never make you cry.

My Heart Is Broken

He met her after a long break up.
He told her : Sorry, I've met a new one,
I have a new girlfriend and another future... how about your life ?

She closed her eyes to hide her tears,
remembered all the memories she shared
with him, she remembered how she
shared his pain before his happy
moments and how she refused many
other boys just to stay with him. She kept the remains of her pride and
collected her force,
smiled and said : Sorry sir, but do i know
you...?

The worst pain in life is when you see ur
life been spoiled by the 1 u Trust most. & You cant do anything except standing
quiet & asking yourself. " Is it the gift of Trusting ?

"If someone makes you miserable more than they make you happy, it doesn't matter how much you love them, you need to let them go." Oh God! do you really think so? should I do it? I just can't....his love is my drug, and I am begging for a little more of what is left from his love for me.

Esses dias não tenho me sentido bem, Emotionally sick!

“Me apeguei a algo que nunca me pertenceu.”

People always want something they can't have. Not being able to have something, makes you want it even more.

Eu e o Oriente Médio

       O meu interesse pela cultura árabe começou quando eu conheci um saudita em um site de jogos online, conversamos um pouco no chat e logo ele pediu para que eu o adicionasse no msn, de início não gostei da idéia e disse várias vezes que não e não, mas ele insistiu tanto que por curiosidade da insistência acabei aceitando. Era a primeira vez que eu falava com um árabe,  e quando o vi eu simplesmente fiquei estática com sua beleze exótica, parecia um príncipe guerreiro do deserto ou algo do genêro, ele mexeu profundamente comigo, e logo senti uma paixão começar a florescer por ele, mas no fundo sabia que ele não era alguém para se levar á sério, e estava ali só por diversão, para passar tempo, mesmo assim tive interesse em conhecê-lo melhor e também sabia que ele tinha o mesmo interesse, até porque sou brasileira e isso já é um fato e tanto para ele querer me conhecer. Bem, vocês já sabem da fama das brasileiras lá fora, né? então...Mas logo sabia que teria que deletá-lo do meu msn e da minha vida também, e tinha que fazer isso em breve. Eu não era o tipo de garota que ele procurava na internet, e deixei isso bem claro para ele, mesmo assim engênua como sou continuei a conversar com ele, e a cada conversa me prendia mais á ele, e me fascinava mais pela cultura árabe e pela idéia de estar apaixonada por um árabe. Eu era apenas uma adolescente tento seu primeiro contato de “amor”, nunca tive um namorado, nem mesmo um “ficante” como hoje em dia falam, para mim tudo aquilo era novo, e estava sendo demais ser correspondida, até que então surgiu o primeiro “I love you”, e eu com toda a minha timidez acabei cativando ele de alguma forma. Acho que preciso falar mais sobre mim antes de continuar, como já havia dito sou uma garota muito tímida, e não é fácil para mim se relacionar com as pessoas, e não é uma timidez qualquer, é um tipo de timidez que te paralisa e não te deixa viver. Quando o conheci eu estava em depressão, devido a minha timidez que me levou a ter fobia social, e simplesmente parei com a minha vida e me tranquei em casa, fiquei por alguns anos isolada do mundo e tendo conflitos comigo mesmo, minha existência, e com minha família. Passava os dias no meu quarto ouvindo músicas e escrevendo coisas no sense em um caderno. Na depressão me apeguei a música, era como um forma de escapar da realidade, ou simplesmente me identificar com algo e pôr para fora toda a dor que eu sentia.
         Havia apenas poucos meses que a internet tinha sido instalada, e lá estava eu conversando com um saudita, e caindo de amores por ele, pela primeira vez na vida alguém havia me feito fazer coisas que eu normalmente não faria, assim como conversar no telefone, odeeeeeeio...Noooossa eu liguei para a Árabia Saudita! e havia dado meu telefone para um garoto! Que de garoto não tinha nada, era homem de verdade, e muito areia para o meu caminhozinho rs. Jamais tinha feito isso antes, e meu coração disparava a cada ligação dele, eu estava deslumbrada com tudo aquilo, nem tinha me dado conta que eu estava falando em outra língua, isso porque eu só sabia o básico do inglês aquilo que aprendemos na escola, e pela internet era bem mais fácil já que eu não tinha que encará-lo frente a frente, mas mesmo assim antes de conhecê-lo tinha receio de me comunicar com as pessoas atráves da internet, assim como tenho pessoalmente. Damn shyness!
Aprendi muito com ele, não somente a me comunicar, mas também sobre a cultura árabe e o Islã. Ele me fez sentir amada e desejada, eu sentia algo que nunca senti antes, comecei a ficar feliz e acordava todos os dias com disposição para viver, até minha fisionomia havia mudado e também comecei a perder peso, todos percebiam que eu estava diferente e isso era amor. E sabe o que mais, ele nem havia visto a minha foto ainda, eu era insegura além de tímida, e ainda sou, depois de um tempo ele começou a pedir para me ver, sabia que eu não era boa o suficiente para ele, o que se ele não me achasse bonita? eu usava aparelho nos dentes, e há pouco tempo também havia começado a usar óculos, eu parecia muito menininha para ele, acho que até hoje ele deve duvidar da minha idade rs. Fato é que eu menti, e mostrei para ele fotos que não eram minhas, mas não demorou muito e eu contei a verdade, não poderia continuar com isso por  muito tempo, odeio mentir, e se ele me amava de verdade como dizia, então me amaria do jeito que sou e me veria bonita. Depois de mostrar minhas fotos para ele, não tive nenhuma surpresa desagradável, ele continuou o mesmo comigo. Mas eu tinha a vantagem de vê-lo pela web cam, e como adorava vê-lo vestido com aquele túnica comprida branca “Dishdashah” que árabes vestem, principalmente muito comum nos países do Golfo.
        Então nosso relaciomento começou a chegar a um nível que eu queria mais, eu precisa de mais, para me sentir segura, e ter certeza que era uma relação sólida, mas ele começou a se afastar, não queria falar muito sobre sua família, e nem fazer planos para nosso futuro, embora ele havia dito uma vez que queria eu fosse mãe dos filhos dele, não dá nem para explicar o que senti naquele momento, qualquer garota ficaria extasiada com uma declaração daquelas. E agora no Egito, primeiro ano de faculdade de Odontologia, ele não tinha mais tanto tempo para mim, e também seus planos eram outros, sabia que ele não poderia me incluir em sua vida, foi ai então que comecei a sofrer por um amor que não poderia ser realidade, comecei a perceber que de fato ele não me amava tanto assim, ele nunca poderia me levar á sério, e eu também não...Descobri que ele estava envolvido com uma de suas "primas", e pretendia casar-se com ela, o que eu era para ele então?, apenas uma brasileira que ele conheceu na internet e se envolveu por alguns meses, me senti insignificante, enganada, eu fui apenas um “trófeu” para ele exibir para os amigos e dizer “eu tenho uma namorada brasileira, e ela me ama”, eu fazia quase que tudo por ele, de tão cega que eu estava sendo. Tivemos uma conversa e o nosso relacionamento chegou ao fim, ele disse que eu merecia alguém melhor que ele, e que eu deveria procurar por alguém do meu país, alguém como o kaká por exemplo, me fez rir, não sabia se eu chorava ou se eu ria OMG! Mas chorei por alguns dias, era apenas difícil demais aceitar o que tinha acontecido, e acabado dessa forma.
           Nesse meio tempo em que ele se afastou de mim, eu conheci um egípcio, também conheci outros árabes, queria aprender mais e mais sobre a cultura deles, e saber coisas que o A. não tinha tempo para me contar. Criei uma grande amizade com esse egípcio, digamos que ele me consolou pela minha perde, e me fez abrir os olhos para a realidade de estar se realicionando com um saudita, e que aquilo não me levaria a nada, seria quase que impossível um saudita se casar comigo, então eu comecei a exergar esse amor, não mais como um amor, e sim uma paixão e nada mais.
           
Aqui uma das músicas que me marcaram na época em que eu vivia no meu mundinho, isolada de tudo e de todos, em profunda depressão.

I'm With You

I'm standing on a bridge

I'm waiting in the dark

I thought that you'd be here by now

There's nothing but the rain

No footsteps on the ground

I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand?

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I... I'm with you

I miss you

I'm looking for a place

I'm searching for a face

Is anybody here I know?

Cause nothing's going right

And everything is a mess

And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand?

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I... I'm with you

I'm with you

Yeah, Yeah, Oh...

Oh why is everything so confusing

Maybe I'm just out of my mind

Yeah yeah yeah

Yeah yeah yeah

Yeah yeah yeah yeeeaaahhh

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand?

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I... I'm with you

I'm with you

I'm with you

Take me by the hand?

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I... I'm with you

I'm with you

I'm with you...

I don't want to dream of you, I want to be with you. I don't want to miss you, I want be in your arms. I don't want to be your fantasy, I want to be your reality...

Time has created circumstances that have separated us....these distances will end however immense the difficulties may be....even the creator can't write such a cruel destiny for us...your name written in the lines of my hand can never be erased...!!

O equilíbrio entre destino e livre-arbítrio

O destino pré-determinado existe, mas não é uma sentença imutável – pois o livre-arbítrio existe da mesma forma e com a mesma força e intensidade. Veja neste fato a importância de termos em mente que o nosso destino é moldado por nossas escolhas. Mesmo que de forma às vezes inconsciente, nossos pensamentos, palavras e ações são escolhas que fazemos. Até mesmo quando alguém nos machuca, a dor vem de dentro de nós. Ou seja, é uma reação pessoal a determinado fato ou situação. De uma maneira simplificada, podemos dizer que nossos pensamentos criam nossos hábitos e sentimentos, que por sua vez criam ações que moldam o nosso destino. Somos o que cremos, e o que cremos cria nosso destino.

Uma clara prova disto pode ser observada na leitura das linhas das mãos. Observe suas mãos e você verá diferenças nas linhas em cada uma delas. As linhas do coração, da cabeça e da vida estão no mesmo lugar – mas com formatos e tamanhos diferentes. Sinais existentes em uma mão também não existem na outra. Isso acontece porque uma das mãos é a do destino e a outra é a dominante.

As linhas e sinais das mãos revelam personalidade, traços psicológicos, ligações cármicas, saúde, tendências em relação a aspectos amorosos e profissionais e até mesmo mudanças de cidade e de país. Na mão do destino, as linhas permanecem iguais durante toda a vida, pois elas revelam o seu destino programado. Mas na mão dominante as linhas mudam constantemente de acordo com as suas escolhas. Uma comparação entre as duas mãos revela o que você mudou em si mesmo e em sua vida, e os novos caminhos que foram abertos como resultados de suas ações. Um aprendizado, um relacionamento ou uma escolha feita na sua adolescência, por exemplo, pode resultar em um grande acontecimento na sua vida 40 anos depois – algo que nem estava “programado” quando você nasceu.

A quiromancia (como é chamada a leitura das linhas das mãos) também mostra como você evoluiu mental e espiritualmente através das experiências que teve ao longo da vida. A leitura das linhas das mãos pode revelar o seu futuro – mas a real importância da quiromancia é servir como uma ferramenta de autoconhecimento que permita a você refletir sobre sua existência e traçar novos rumos por si mesmo, inclusive mudando a trajetória da sua jornada. O seu destino está em suas mãos.

Artigo publicado no Jornal do Yoga, primeira edição de 2011.

Por Marcos Alexandre

Sometimes you've got to run away to see who will run after you. Sometimes you've got to talk quieter to see who's really listening. Sometimes you've got to step up to fight only to see who's standing by your side. Sometimes you've got to make a wrong decision only to see who's there to help you fix it. Sometimes you've got to let go of the one you love just to see if they love you enough to come back to you.

I do not hate you, and have never hated you. I was angry at you and depressed by you and confused about you. But hate... hate never came into it.

I wanna believe that you're this perfect guy and everything you seem to be is true. But when I look at you, really look at you, I can tell that I'm just barely scratching the surface. You're that book, with the pretty cover, the one that I just can't wait to to get into. But you should never judge a book by it's cover, because now that I've read far enough into you that I just can't put you down, there will be a twist... and everything will change... and by the last page... I'll be heartbroken.

I’m not always as confident as I seem. There are many nights and many days when all I want is to be held. I love being held. Always. Sometimes I don’t want to talk about what is bothering me. Sometimes I just want a hug. Someone who will let me cry. I like when boys cry in front of me - when people aren’t afraid to show what they’re really feeling. I don’t like when people run from their true feelings because it doesn’t do anyone any good. I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. I know what it’s like to see something funny and not laugh. I’ve been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart. And my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does. Ever.

HOW TO KEEP A RELATIONSHIP:

- Communicate: Talk about things, the good and bad.
- Build trusts
- Be honest
- Be faithful
- Be there for one another.
- Make time for one another.
- Leave the past to the past, which include ex’s.
- Know that having arguments are normal.
- Know that you won’t always be happy.
- Don’t expect change.
- Appreciate the flaws.
- Appreciate each other.
- Become best friends.
- Lastly, love each other unconditionally.

Wash It All Away

"...Please don't be afraid, when the darkness fades away, the dawn will break the silence screaming in our hearts. My love for you still grows, this I do for you, before I try to fight the truth, my final time.We're supposed to try and be real.When you feel alone, you're not together. And that is real. Can't wash it all away, can't wish it all away, can't cry it all away, can't scratch it all away...Lying beside you, listening to you breathe, the life that flows inside of you burns inside of me. Hold and speak to me of love without a sound, tell me you will live through this and I will die for you. Cast me not away, say you'll be with me, for I know I cannot bear it all alone..."You're not alone, are you?""Never... Never." Can't fight it all away, can't hope it all away, can't scream it all away...It just won't fade away..."

I want nothing more than to be with you, to have my hands held safely in yours. To wake up to your face in the morning and to lie down next to your body at the end of a long night. To share coffe and umbrellas and hugs and laughs with you. To be the reason for your smile, to be the one you can't stop thinking about, to be the one you dream of. To know that I have all of you,just like you have all of me.

..."I am finding out that maybe I was wrong. That I've fallen down, and I can't do this alone. Stay with me. This is what I need, please. I am nothing now, and it's been so long. Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope. This heart, it beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours. Please don't go now. Please don't fade away."...
Paramore

Amar à distância...

A demência de amar à distância

Por: (Marcos Woyames de Albuquerque)

Alguém chamou de demência,
Amar sem por perto estar.
Quem disse que a ausência,
Não condiz o verbo amar?

Se a distância se faz presente,
Impossível esquecer,
Pois amar quem está ausente,
Faz a gente mais querer.
Se o tempo nos afasta,

Faz nascer no peito a saudade.
O tempo não desgasta,
Um amor quando é de verdade.

Não sentir a tua presença,
Não me faz jamais esquecer.
Determina sim a sentença,

Da vontade de te querer. 

Procurar por outro alguém,
Pode ser a solução.
Solução pra quem não tem,
Amor real no coração. 

O silêncio não assusta,
Não me deixa nem aflito.
 Sei que tua falta é injusta,
No peito guardo este grito.

 Pode ser insanidade,
Manter amores aos poucos.
Melhor que não ter amor,
É amar alguém como os loucos.

Disappointed

Why should I feel guilty? just because I was not there. She stolen that magic moment from us, it should be only between you and me.You promised. And you broke it.

Some acts can be forgiven, but not forgotten.

I've driven round in circles for three hours

It was bound to happen that I'd end up at yours

I temporarily forgot there's better days to come

I thought that I would give it just one more chance

Cos' I want, tonight, what I've been waiting for

But I found, tonight, what I'd been warned about

You think that you are complicated, deep mystery to all

Well it's taken me a while to see, you're not so special

All energy no meaning, with a lot of words

So paper thin that one real feeling, could knock you down

And I've seen, tonight, what I'd been warned about

I'm gonna leave, tonight, before I change my mind

So see you when your 40, lost and all alone

being comforted by strangers you'll never need to know

not sad because you lost me

but sad because you thought it was cool to be sad

You think misery will make you stand apart from the crowd

well if you had walked past me today I wouldn't have picked you out

I wouldn't have picked you out

Now I've seen, tonight, how could I waste my time?

and I'll be on my way, and I won't be back

cos I've seen, tonight, what I've been warned about

you're just a boy, not a man, and I'm not coming back.

Warning : If there's some girl out there, in love with an arab man, please be careful with the snakes around him, Ops I mean his female cousins, sorry. :)

I still love you after all, 'cos I know better than anyone what goes through your heart.
But  I can't help myself  wondering. Was I in your thoughts in that moment?

- E você, por que desvia o olhar?

Porque eu tenho medo de altura. Tenho medo de cair para dentro de você. Há nos seus olhos castanhos certos desenhos que me lembram montanhas, cordilheiras vistas do alto, em miniatura. Então, eu desvio os meus olhos para amarrá-los em qualquer pedra no chão e me salvar do amor. Mas, hoje, não encontraram pedra. Encontraram flor. E eu me agarrei às pétalas o mais que pude, sem sequer perceber que estava plantada num desses abismos, dentro dos seus olhos.

- Ah… Porque sou tímida

LoVe

"We are always two halves, Because life is made of choices! We are the yes and no, While there is a maybe. We are love and reason, Although exist the madness. We are the before and now, Although we are always waiting for later. We are light and darkness, Simply because one can not exist without the other. We are body and spirit, Although the essence is into the soul. We are fear and courage, Because within us cries out the desire. We are doubt and certainty, Simply because both are identical. We are illusion and reality ... And in the search of our halves, there´s no need only to know, it´s need to feel!"

God opens millions of flowers
without forcing the buds,
it reminds us not to force anything
for things happen in the right time.

If he still sees the beauty in you and still falls more in love with you after seeing your weird facial expressions, your unusual laugh, your constant complaining, your ugly days, your pig out days, the way you toss and turn in your sleep, your  stupid jokes, the way you ask questions about the thing you should already know the answers to but he answers them anyway, your obsession with strange things, your random sounds, and your immaturity. Then you already know that this is the boy.

Hopelessness

 Ás vezes é difícil ter que aceitar certas situações em nossa vida, se eu pudesse fazer alguma coisa por ele, eu faria, mas assim como ele costuma dizer "não está em minhas mãos", somente um milagre para mudar isso. Já faz dois anos que vivemos nesse drama do alistamento militar que em breve ele terá que cumprir, não há como escapar, embora já pensamos em várias coisas para ele tentar se safar dessa. Ele queria muito vir para o Brasil, e tentar visto de estudante e estudar engenharia aqui, mas não é assim tão simples, antes disso ele teria que aprender português e muitos outros detalhes que vai precisar de $. Está tudo muito em cima da hora, não há tempo para resolver tudo isso, e é triste para mim sentir essa frustração que vem dele, e como ele se sente perdido e angustiado. Somos jovens demais e ainda não temos controle sobre nossos vidas, e mesmo que pareça tempo perdido, é apenas tempo para que possamos amadurecer e estarmos preparados para as responsabilidades que estão por vir. Acredito que ser for amor de verdade, nem a distãncia e nem os afastamentos vão acabar com o que o sentimos um pelo outro, por ele eu esperaria e ainda espero por toda a vida. Nem que seja só para encontra-lo por um dia, olhar em seus olhos e finalmente poder dizer "I'm here". Sabe que dói quando as pessoas não acreditam na possibilidade de estarmos juntos algum dia, mas me dói ainda mais quando é ele que expressa essa desesperança.

..."So far away
It's growing colder without your love
Why can't you feel me calling your name?
Can't break the silence, it's breaking me
All my fears turn to rage

And I'm alone now"...

(Your Star-Evanescence)

...

Closing Cycles

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened.
You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister.
Everyone is finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.
Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.
That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home.
Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them.
Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.
Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.”
Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need.
This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life.
Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.
Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

Paulo Coelho

"Apaixone-se por alguém que te curte, que te espere, que te compreenda mesmo na loucura, por alguém que te ajude, que te guie, que seja teu apoio, tua esperança. Apaixone-se por alguém que volte para conversar com você depois de uma briga, depois do desencontro. Apaixone-se por alguém que sente sua falta e que queria estar com você. Não se apaixone apenas por um corpo ou por um rosto ou pela idéia de estar apaixonado."

"She believes in love and romance. She believes her life is going to be transformed into something wonderful and exciting. She has hopes and fears, just like anyone. Sometimes she feels frightened. Sometimes she feels unloved. Sometimes she feels she will never gain approval from those people who are most important to her. But she’s brave, and goodhearted and faces her life head on."

— Can You Keep a Secret? - Sophie Kinsella

Love Letter

I would LOVE to receive a love letter in his own handwriting, like I did once, it would be the best gift he could give me and I'd keep it with me untill the last day of my life, wishing that as well as my love memories of him, its perfume never fade away.

 

"Letter to a Lost Love"

What to do when you want to talk and not have anyone to listen? When the friends are too busy to listen you? It is once again, I write, I try to pencil and paper Wrote another letter, which I will not send you. Now! what remains is empty! This longing, this desire to have, what I can not have. What folly! This suffering, which extends to every call (ring) of the phone, Loneliness that never ending. Cracks that nothing can fill, Empty, that nothing can fill, How much pain, untill to get me confuse Now I know that love and pain go together. Tears flow from the heart, and wets my face Every time that your memory comes in me. Tears you can not see! Suffering that you have not seen. And now I feel so abandoned, so alone. ? And where are you? Surely you are in the arms of someone else. I do not know if anyone will be able to love you like me. how much I miss you!? I miss of the dream not dreamed,a love that existed and was not performed, I wanted so much to hear your voice again. your voice saying "stay with me." But these words are mine. Actually I'm here. Begging for you ... For a little bit of you. I don´t know if I will make my desires of seeing you again become true another time It is, at least in my dreams I have you. I thought of some things to say: So love, I will summarize: I will never forget you, because I loved you and still love you.

Soledad !!

"If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind If only you could heal my heart just one more time. Even when I close my eyes there's an image of your face, and once again I come to realize You're a loss I can't replace Soledad !! It's a keeping for the lonely since the day that you were gone Why did you leave me Soledad In my heart you were the only And your memory lives on Why did you leave me Soledad !!"