I'm in love and always will be...

I know you think that
I shouldn't still love you, or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, while I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction
to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that makes sense

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be...

...Me enganei ao pensar que ele não sentia a minha falta, mas às vezes ainda me pergunto se ele rende-se a mim porque ainda me ama, ou porque não encontrou alguém que pudesse preencher esse vazio que ele sente depois de ter me deixado. Sabe que uma garota como eu, ele difícilmente encontrará, ninguém havia ainda o amado como eu o amei, e ninguém o conhece tão bem quanto eu,  ou eu jamais o teria perdoado depois de tanto sofrer.

"Fallen so far from where we were before
You'll never find what you've been searching for
Something to fill the void and make up for all
Of those missing pieces of you

Like I could only dream to do"

Virtual

Nunca te vi,
Não conheço o teu corpo,
Mas eu te sinto
Mesmo que estejas longe.
Não me olhei ainda
Na luz dos teus olhos
E nem provei
O gosto da tua boca.
Mas eu te quero,
Mesmo sabendo
Que nunca te terei.
Não experimentei o teu toque
E nem sequer te acariciei,
Mas sinto o teu perfume no ar.
Sucumbi à tua sedução,
Mesmo sabendo
Que nunca te encontrarei.
Mas não faz mal,
Pois alma é mais do que corpo.
E, se não te tenho ao meu lado,
Que o vento sussurre para ti
Minhas palavras de carinho.
Quero também que ele diga
Que alguém te ama
Do jeito que mais sabe,
Com tudo o que é capaz.
E se pensares no amor,
E em tudo o que ele traz,
De felicidade, na vida,
Ora, isso não é nada,
Pois te amo muito mais!
Alma é mais do que corpo.
E minha alma seguirá
Sempre amando a tua,
Mesmo que nossos corpos
Nunca possam se encontrar.
Mas chegará o momento,
Por alma ser mais que corpo,
Que seremos só uma alma,
Um coração e um só pensamento.

Aprendi com os meus próprios erros que sofrer não torna mais poético, chorar não deixa mais aliviado e implorar não traz ninguém de volta. Aprendi também que por mais que você queria muito alguém, ninguém vale tanto a pena a ponto de você deixar de se querer.

Tati Bernardi

FIX YOU

When you try your best, but you don't succeed,
When you get what you want, but not what you need,
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try, to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try, you'll never know
Just what you're worth.
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try, to fix you.
Tears stream down your face,
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you...

Saudade!

E entre tudo que ele poderia ser para mim, ele escolheu ser saudade. ♥

Caio F. Abreu

Long Distance Love

When it hurts so bad,
why does it feel so good?
I wish this all made sense,
I wish I understood.
Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside,
but I can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try.

You know how I feel about you,
and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
but it's so hard to do when I can't even be next to you.
Why does it gotta be so complicated?

Loving you feels so right,
but at the same time,
knowing I can't have you keeps me awake at night.
I just want this to be simple,
I just want you here with me,
to look into your eyes,
be held in your arms...then I'd truly be happy.

Right now this distance between us is out of our control,
but I'm still hoping one day soon,
I'll get what I'm wishing for.

I am here, and  you are there. Ten thousand miles is an awfully long way to walk or drive or swim or sail. But it's not too far to dream. In the dead of night, the expanses shrink to nothingness and I find you right beside me. I sail towards the horizon and there our worlds collide.

Trust me... He's worth it

Don’t worry, he’ll miss you. You’re the best he could get, and he blew it.
Don’t let him make you think for one second that this was your fault. It’s not.
He screwed up, and you did absolutely nothing wrong.
You gave him your heart, and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn’t.
And honestly, he’s not mature enough. He’s not smart enough.
If he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fiber of his being
and been with you every spare second he could. But he didn’t, and now he’s gone.
But don’t you cry. Don’t call him telling him you miss him.
Don’t IM him, don’t message him, don’t comment him, don’t talk to him in the hallways.
Just pretend you don’t care.
And don’t be surprised when he comes crawling back saying he made a mistake.
And if you want to go, go with him again.
But make him work for you. Don’t be his doormat.
Don’t let him in the first time he rings the bell.
Make him come back every day until you trust him enough.
If he doesn’t come back after a couple of tries, just let him go.
But if he comes back every day, then he’s worth it. Trust me .. he’s worth it

Está sendo tão difícil para mim, estou me segurando para não ir atrás dele novamente, tem tantas coisas que ainda gostaria de lhe dizer, e o quanto eu sinto a falta dele, queria poder saber se ele também sinte a minha falta, mas ele não dará o braço a torcer, e  acho que ele está bem e bem feliz...with her always around him, making him smile with simple words, simple jokes...he won't miss me anymore. And even if I meet new people, and having someone saying that love me, it's not the same, and I end up thinking of him again and it's him who I miss, and I just can't find him on someone else's.

I sent him a last message, here it's just a part of it:

..."Believe me I understand you very well more than you think I do, but do you understand me? can you feel my pain? Why does it seem so much more hard for me to let go? Anyway it's the last time I am running after you, if you want to give one more chance for us, I'm here but don't be late because as you I also wanna live life, and I would be ungrateful to God wasting it for someone who doesn't care at all. My heart still belongs to you, but while you keep hurting it as you do, I will have no other option than give it to another one who can heal these scars, take all this pain away and make me feel loved again. Because my heart doesn't deserve all this pain you cause to it. When love makes you cry more than smile then it doesn't worth it.

Sometimes the greatest pain, the most intense hurt, comes from those we love and trusted the most.

Don't answer me this message IF it's going to hurt me so much more, keep on your silence and I'll understand your message and stay away from you. Leave you alone as you want."

Ele não enviou outra mensagem como resposta e nunca mais conversamos.