I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert.

I wonder what it'd be like to disappear. I don't mean that in a morbid sense; I'm not saying that I want to melt away into thin air, or fade slowly into nothingness. I'm saying that I want to go somewhere new for a change. Someplace where I can be exactly who I want to be. Someplace where no one knows my name. Someplace where I can start over again.

You can spend so much time waiting for a day to come, for a moment to happen - but when it doesn't, you don't know what to feel. Even though you know life hardly ever goes according to plan, you can't help but hope. You think that maybe, just once, things might work out. And sometimes, the universe really does throw something your way. Sometimes the things you're waiting for does happen...and what you'll find is that still won't know what to feel.

Letter to an "Unknown"

I don't know why we can't be friends, it may be hard for you after all we had together, but you were the one I always could trust, without fear of being myself. I miss someone who cares of me as you did, I miss talking to you everyday like we used to, talk as friends, talking about everything and anything all day everyday, spilling our emotions, talking about music and our problems, everything. Now it's like we don't even know each other anymore and it kind of hurts, even though we weren't anything, it still hurts knowing we've grown apart and it went by so quickly. I may be a bored or dull girl sometimes but I'm sure I'm the best that you've ever had, and you will neve find better than me, because nobody loves you like I do. It's painful to know that you want to erase me from your memory, your life and heart. It seems that I was just a mistake in your life, once that I meant eveything to you and now I am just NOTHING. Maybe you don't believe my love for you, I just wasn't strong enough to hold on, to go ahead and fight for our dreams, that have always been so far away from our reach. I just hope you can understand that I have my own internal conflicts, although I couldn't fight against them, it does not mean that I never loved you enough, 'cos I still do. And I'll Always love you.

I keep thinking that if you had really loved me like you said you did, you would've tried hard. I won't be the one to take the blame, was you not fighting beside me? We both are losers, and it was already expected behind the eyes of those that always have seen our love as a "failed romance" all along.

Not A Real Life

 Living in her own imaginary world, she keeps "feeding" illusions of a life that does not belong to her, holding on something that is not real just to ease the pain of not being exactly what she expect herself to be. While the years pass by, she get older without realize that all what she has lived was a lie, all what she lives is a lie. Out of her reality she lose herself in dreams of a perfect world that can not be found, hiding the truth to not face the fear of living. She doesn't live, all she does is just breathe into the emptiness of her life.

Lost In Paradise

I've been believing in something so distant
As if I was human
And I've been denying this feeling of hopelessness
In me, in me

All the promises I made
Just to let you down
You believed in me, but I'm broken

I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting

We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise

As much as I'd like the past not to exist
It still does
And as much as I'd like to feel like I belong here
I'm just as scared as you

I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting

We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise

Run away, run away
One day we won't feel this pain anymore

Take it all away
Shadows of you
Cause they won't let me go

till I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting

We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise

Alone, I'm lost in paradise

(EvaneScence)